Clutching her companions hand tightly, she walked into the room, unsure of where her feet were taking her. Her arrival was greeted by silence and curiosity. She stopped, blinked and took an uncertain look around at what was to be her ‘home’ from now on. ‘Home’- it couldn’t be her home. Home was with her father and mother. But then why was she brought here? “See that bed, over there in the corner. That’s yours and the cupboard next to it.” The little girl looked at the source of these words and immediately turned away. She was too big and scary. The little girl felt frightened by her size. “Who is she? The Matron, oh! Yes. That is what she had said.”
“Move now,” the Matron said and shoved her and the girl slowly walked towards her bed. She heard the matron leaving and turned around to five pairs of eyes staring at her. Five pairs of hostile eyes focused on a small innocent girl. They were so frightening, so unfriendly. “Welcome,” one of them said. The biggest one. Was she a girl? She looked almost like a giant, a boy.
“I guess you are Aastha. The matron was talking about you”, she continued, “now that you are here, you have to follow certain rules. You see I am the boss here, so you have to obey my orders or else...” She looked into her eyes with intimidating terror which sent a wave of terror through Aastha’s spine. She was scared of every thing in her new home and liked nothing about it. The matron, the girls and the guards, all seemed frightening. She found no friends there and wanted to go back to playing pranks with other children in her locality. She couldn’t find any companion here. Her only companion was the teddy her father had given him.
Her father--- she longed for the warmth and love of her father and mother. She could see them clearly when she closed here eyes. She remembered the day. It was her birthday. The party was over but she stayed up waiting for her father. She had stayed up till 12’o clock in the night waiting for him. He father was very late but he gave her the best birthday gift, a teddy. It became her favorite the moment she set her eyes on it. The next morning, as usual he dropped her to school. In the afternoon her teacher told her that her mother would not be coming to pick her up. She had seen many teachers talking something seriously while looking towards her. Her mother didn’t come and then her class teacher took her to her own home. “When will my Mummy come?” She asked her teacher with tears in her eyes.
“They have gone on a long journey dear. Now eat your food and go to sleep.”
“A long journey.” She couldn’t understand anything. “But what did it mean? Had they gone to visit someone? Perhaps, they had gone on a holiday without taking her along. How dare, they? I won’t talk to them when they come back.”
Aastha had decided.
She waited for them two whole weeks standing before a window during her stay in the teacher’s house. They didn’t come. She was still waiting for them at her new home.
No, not home. Home was where her father and mom were.
“The supper bell went off 5 min ago, now move if you want any supper.” The matron had reappeared. The big girl was also in the midst of saying something but she stopped, turned and moved out of the room. Aastha looked at her blankly and then slowly followed her to supper clutching the teddy tightly.
Time passed slowly at her new boarding. Yes, that is what it was. Not home.
It was only a week since she had come here but it felt like years. Father and mother were not yet back. She missed them; especially her father. She felt like crying all the time. Her room mates teased her. They had torn all her books and the pretty dress that her father had brought for her. She was very upset but she didn’t cry. She knew her daddy will buy her another one. “I miss you Dad!” She sighed tightening her grip on the teddy and felt tears brimming in her eyes. She wiped them away instantly. Her Dad always told her that brave children do not cry. “I will be brave,” she said to the teddy. She wanted her dad to know how brave she had been in his absence. He would be so proud of her. She could see him smiling at her; a little smile touched her lips.
Weeks passed but her father and mother had not come back yet. She felt helpless. “Where is Dad? Where are they? I miss you Dad. I miss you Mom. Please come back soon. I don’t like it here. Everyone is so bad, no one loves me. Please Dad, come back soon. I promise I’ll be a good child; I won’t disturb you and mummy ever again. Please Dad, I miss you very much.” She said to her teddy, searching for comfort in its lifeless form and fighting back tears. Suddenly, loud, rude laughter reached her ears. She turned around and saw the big girl along with her friends. “Look at her, talking to her teddy,” the big girl said. “Grow up girl; your dad won’t be back. Nobody comes back here.”
“No! He will be back,” the little girl shouted, staring at the other girl and teeming with anger. Her declaration was followed by a silence which was broken by the almost inaudible words of the big girl. “No body shouts at me. You will be punished.”
Aastha stood staring at her and felt the teddy bear being snatched from her grip.
“No! Give him back to me. He’s mine.” The poor child shouted but to no avail. The big girl and her friends tossed it around, pulled it, rolled it in mud until it resembled a piece of rag, then threw it away and went off to their room. “That’ll teach her a lesson” one of them said. Aastha looked around at what remained of her most faithful friend, her sole companion. Slowly, she gathered its pieces in her lap and felt a tear brushing her cheeks. This time she couldn’t stop herself. The pain, the sorrow enclosed in her heart for so long came gushing out and she wept. She wept alone and inconsolably. Only thoughts that came to her mind was why do people go for long journeys”
Out side little drops of rain were clearing the dust from the sign board at the entrance of the building and the sharp light from the passing car revealed the word orphanage.
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